So I have a crush, the likes of which I haven't had since I was thirteen. Its god awful. I never get this way over a guy. I just want to talk to him all the time, I want him to talk to me. I just want to be with him. No matter how many times I tell my self I dont want him I still go to school the next day and fall at his feet. He's genuinely beautiful. I dont even understand why im so obsessed its just creepy and as much as I try not to be I am. Blahhhhhhh! I hate it! I mean usually I like a guy but never get my hopes up high and genuinely dont give a fuck if it works out or not but with him it feels like my life depends on it. I hate it so much.